not sure what to do

[Alice11]

I'm needing some help. how does one continue . over the last 2yrs i have lost everything except 2 friends. i have lost 2 family members, 2 very much-loved pets. 1 by age and 1 by murder. i lost my home and job. today in a group i attended was about hope, it got me thinking and to be honest i feel like i have none.   

[Gremlin24]

Hello @Alice11 and welcome to the forums. I'm sorry to hear what you have gone through losing friends, family members and pets is tough to go through and losing your home and job would be so hard. Have you had any support such as a psychologist/counsellor? 

It's really hard when we lose hope but you can find that again, it just takes time and getting support to get you through the hard times. 

We are here to support you however we can. You are not alone ❤️.

[Alice11]

i spent some time in hospital and then a councilor for a couple weeks after discharge. im also in the recovery group here.  

[Gremlin24]

@Alice11 ok, I'm glad you did speak to a counsellor. You can also see a GP and get a referral to talk to. Psychologist/counsellor if you feel that's something you'd like to do. It's great that you are also doing the recovery group here and I hope that's helpful for you.

Do you have things that you enjoy doing? I know when things are tough for me i try to do things to distract myself. I enjoy doing colouring and listening to music.

I can sympathise with you with losing your pets, I've had to put 4 dogs down over the last 5 years, 3 of them were due to old age but the one I lost last year was only 3 and that's really hit me hard, she was also my assistance dog. 

[Alice11]

i have found the groups good. i have tried a lot of the exercises they have recommended. im just having a really hard time justifying why im still here. 

[Gremlin24]

@Alice11 that's good. Great that you are trying the exercises they have recommended, just remember that it takes time and practice for things to work sometimes. 

I think we all find it hard at times to justify why we are still here. But you are and you deserve to be here, i know it can be hard to see that. Do you have any hobbies or activities that you do? What do your days look like? 

[Jynx]

Hey @Alice11 just a lil tip, if you want other members to be notified that you've responded, you can tag them - use the @ symbol and a drop down will appear, and you can choose their name. If their name isn't there, you can type it out and it should then appear for you to select, then it will show up in blue, like this: @Gremlin24 

Also.... I don't think any human being on this earth ought to need to justify their existence. Not like any of us chose to be here! 

It may seem like there's no light at the end of the tunnel... but sometimes it's cos we've yet to turn those last few corners 😊 

[Alice11]

@Gremlin24 my days are very quiet i sit in my caravan and spend most of my time online. i use to do wildlife care and camping prospecting. but since i lost my dog i have been out once and hated it. i cannot find joy in anything 

@Jynx it feels like im just falling down cliffs with no light at the end 

[Gremlin24]

@Alice11 do you play games online ? Wildlife care would be so rewarding to do. I'm sorry to hear that you hated going out, I have to push myself to go out otherwise I'd stay in my own little bubble. It's hard when we can't find joy in anything. The important thing is to not give up, keep trying until you find something that you enjoy. 

[Alice11]

@Gremlin24 no just watching video clips just scrolling. wildlife work was so rewarding i really enjoyed it but having to move out of the area and being homeless i cannot commit to anything.