I’m exhausted. I dont know what happen to me.

[KitKat1803]

Hi all, 

I’m so confused with my mental health. I’m undiagnosed with ADHD and diagnosed with depression but I think my illness is beyond that. 
I frequently show negative facial experesion and body language to people when im annoyed. I get triggered quickly. My mood swing is intense. When is down, I will snap at people and showing rude behaviours or having suicidal thoughts. I like to pretend myself as a different person and live in their life, I even wear clothes to pretend like them. I talk to myself in that person’s perspective as if im in that real life situation. This makes me happy like to escape the real world. I cant maintain my relationships with people. I cut them off very often. I constantly repeat small mistakes and feel so guilty and anxious about it. For example, forgetting to put the keys back. My work has the spare keys but i still feel so guilty for 30 mins

Can someone pls tell me what is this mental health disorder and how to cope with it? 

Thank you so much in advance.

K

[Owlunar2]

Hi @KitKat1803 

I really can't answer your question about your mental health

However - I do know that pretending to be like someone else isn't the answer - we can only be one person and that's who we are

Finding out who you are might be the path to take and you probably need help with that - can you see your GP and get a Health Plan with Medicare to see a psychologist

btw - I do have PTSD but otherwise I am okay - when I am having a rough day people can get the rough side of my tongue if the try and get on the bus before I get off - being rude is just giving as good as you get and not a mental health issue unless it's out of control.

If that is the case - again - a psychologist might help - probably would 

I wish you the best with that - life isn't easy for anyone these days - I do wish you the best

Also - welcome to the forums - someone might have better ideas than I have

Best wishes

Owlunar

[MJG017]

Hi @KitKat1803 

I can't really add anything to what @Owlunar2 wrote.  I think you need to see a psychologist if you feel you have undiagnosed issues.  We can give you out thoughts but we can give you a proper diagnosis.  As Owlunar2 suggested, a visit to your GP for a mental health care plan would the the best way forward, assuming you don't have one already.  The 10 subidised visits make it far more affordable to see a psychologist.

I think most of us struggle to control our expressions and body language when we're stressed, especially if we've felt that way for an extended time.  And as we all know, dealing with our mental health issues can be extremely stressful and it's hard to keep from outwardly showing it.

Good luck KitKat.