Ocd obsession thinking

[Annabanana]

Hey guys im anna and i have ocd

iv been diagnosed for a couple years now and are on medication but still get obsessions my ocd isn't much of compulsions but more of obsessions like i could walk past a stranger and their face wont leave my mind its made me feel really ashamed and alone because it feels like somethings really wrong with me.i also get intrusive thoughts constantly which i don't even want to really discuss because they don't align with my values and i really really hope their not true.But i feel like iv had them for so long that i don't know anymore and thats scary that i don't feel guilty for them anymore.I guess im witting all this because i feel so alone and its killing me it sometimes feels like the universe is against me and there nothing i can do but die.

[RiverSeal]

Hey @Annabanana thank you for sharing your experiences with the Forums!

Sounds like you are going through a tough time at the moment and demonstrating your courage and strength. I'm sure you are very resilient as it sounds like you have been going through this for a while.

I am diagnosed with schizophrenia, and I have also had a lot of intrusive thoughts which I have found challenging to cope with. One thing I did learn to do which really helped in my recovery journey was to deliberately ruminate about positive things in my life when I had intrusive thoughts. It worked well for me, but we are all different.  

We have the Guided Recovery here at SANE if you feel like it would be beneficial to talk with someone who gets it. 

Take care

RiverSeal 

[tyme]

Hey @Annabanana ,

Welcome to the forums!

I hear you about the obsessive/intrusive thoughts. I've had them for many many years.

Through therapy, and applying the principles of acceptance and commitment therapy, I am so much more able to let these thoughts be - let them come and go. I used to resist them and the more I resisted the thoughts, the more prominent they were. 

Nowadays, the thoughts come in and go out as they please. I don't fight them. The 'noise' of these thoughts are now in the background. Will they ever fully leave me? Probably not. But I'm okay with that.