Depression

[Gremlin24]

I hope this is ok to share, this is something I wrote a few years ago when I was going through a rough patch and tried to take my own life several times. 

Depression is darkness, pitch black, no light, no hope. Lying in bed feeling like you are stuck in concrete unable to move. Thoughts racing through your mind, losing control of yourself. Little by little, bit by bit the darkness consumes you. Complete despair, you are willing to try anything to mask the pain, to make it stop. 

Depression kills, it's debilitating, exhausting, frustrating, lonely. We must fight to not let the darkness consume us. We must find light at the end. Our past does not define who we are today and who we can become. 

Have faith, believe, fight, trust, love and accept yourself. Don't doubt yourself, you are capable of more than you could ever imagine. Fight the depression, fight to become the best you can be. Inspire others to believe that depression is not the end, it's just a speed bump in the road to finding happiness. 

You deserve happiness, love, peace. 

Never stop fighting no matter what! 

Written by me. 

@Oaktree @MJG017 @Judymay @Glisten @rav3n @Ru-bee 

[Cleo2]

Thanks for sharing @Gremlin24 

[Judymay]

A great way to externalise your thoughts and feelings especially when it feels no one is listening. I am listening and know the darkness of depression well. I think it is brave you have kept your fight even if it feels like you are barely making it, you don't always have to thrive. I'm in a just make it to the next day phase myself and hope it may change one day. 

thank you for sharing your words as they are raw, real and am sure many can relate to this experience. Thank you for being brave in your vulnerability @Gremlin24 

[Gremlin24]

@Judymay it took so much courage to post that. And even now I doubt myself on whether I should have. Thankyou for your support. I too am just living minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day just hoping i make it through. 

[Oaktree]

@Gremlin24 

Thank you for sharing. I do hope that you find the light at the end of your tunnel. Keep fighting day by day! There is hope

[Gremlin24]

@Oaktree see back then I thought i was through it and i never expected to be back in this dark place again. But this time feels so much different and worse. I'm not sure how much fight I have left in me. 

[Oaktree]

@Gremlin24 

I know it’s very dark right now but you will find your way through it again. Keep taking baby steps. You can find your way again, you have done it before.

[Gremlin24]

@Oaktree i really hope i can. I just feel like I'm letting everyone down and for that I'm sorry. 

[MJG017]

@Gremlin24 

Thankyou for sharing and well done for finding rhe courage to do so, it was such a powerful piece of writing.

At times, dealing with the depression can seem so much easier than finding that hope.  I think we can find ourselves in a position where no matter how hard we try, that hope feels unattainable and we find ourselves needing help to point us in the right direction.

[Judymay]

I am glad you did, I will lie tonight knowing my experience though feels alone is held by others and I do feel sad about that but also grateful we could share it and maybe find life in the small steps we try to take