Again I have woken with a heavy sense of dread wondering the day ahead might bring. I'm the kind of tired that the word tired doesn't fit with. Most things feel like a huge effort at the moment. Simple things are harder than I'm used to them being and big things seem enormous. I'm finding it difficult to juggle and prioritise it all.
I'm starting to struggle to do the things I need to do for myself. I find myself lost in things people need or want from me and things I'd like to do and be for them. I'm frustrated at myself that 'I can't do that today' isn't easier said. I'm frustrated at others for not listening to 'I need' when I do say it.
I feel very stretched and like I am falling so far short of being the parent/daughter/sister/friend that I would like to be. My 'fix it, make it better, do something about it' head is frozen knowing there is very little I can actually do about a lot of things. There's worry, pain and suffering wherever I look and at times it feels inescapable. I feel stuck, lost and alone.
