The Challenges of Mental Health Wellbeing

[outlander]

@Sans911 😇

[Teej]

Hey @Sans911 I just caught up on your big/huge/ginormous news. Well done you 😘💜

I'm sheepishly creeping back in after falling off the forum in a big way again. I think I'm starting to understand a bit more why I continue to do this now. It's been bugging me for a while but I keep doing it. It's a combination of things. One is what ever is happening at home. I've had lots of home stuff to deal with, and aging parents. I think my adhd meds also tire me out so I'm so exhausted many nights to come on the forum and respond. I end up just doing jigsaw puzzles until I fall asleep. Lastly I've not talked about it here much but I am being challenged in getting to know me. It's so much harder than I thought it would be. I go through a roller coaster on both sides of my psych appointments. I'm also researching so much stuff to try to piece things together that make sense for me. I think I've become overly self centred during the past 12 months, something I hope to change and be less so again but I know this will take time. In the strangest way it's like waking up to find everything has changed and I have to learn from scratch how to live. I feel kind of crappy writing this here but I wanted you and everyone to know this is very much a 'me' thing, it will never have anything to do with anyone on the forum. 

i was so grateful for your support and advice for my up coming operation (early-ish next week). I've had all the pre surgery stuff now. It was so very helpful talking it through with you when I did. I'm not sure what to think or feel but I'm just trying to take it as it comes. I just wanted to thank you again. Your timing was so perfect. I could say a friend helped me understand it better when I spoke to the hospital staff which felt kind of cool 😎. 

@outlander im sorry you've been navigating another diagnosis and health issue. I hope you find a way through it. I think gut issues are quite hard with mood. I've been experiencing something kind of similar as well.....likely IBS and changing diets and such is draining. I know my mood is really affected when I feel so much discomfort in my gut. Take care of you. You'll need to find extra self compassion. 💜🤗

[Sans911]

Always lovely to hear from you @Teej but your absences are getting longer away, and I feel so sad that my forum family is fractured and missing. Nothing feels the same or right here any more.

But I know and understand that everyone, including you, needs to make their journey in their own way. I think it's fantastic that you are discovering yourself as challenging as that may be. And it all takes enormous amounts of energy.

So thank for explaining what's being happening with you. There's no need to feel 'crappy'. Just do what you to do to build a better life for you.

I wish you all the best next week with your surgery, and hopefully a speedy recovery post op.

Try not to forget me/us here. You are much loved.

💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

[Teej]

@Sans911 I'm really hoping to be back here (forum) more when I'm recovering late next week, depending how things are going of course. I'll def let you know how it's going? I think it will be a bit of a welcome relief to have something else to focus on to be honest.

I don't do well with change either. The hard thing is I know if someone else was dropping in and out like I have I would find that so hard and I'd imagine hurtful. This is not who I want to be but I guess I'm not coping trying to juggle things so well. In the past I could be on the forum and I was ok as long as I didn't have to juggle anything else. I struggle hugely transitioning from one activity to another. It's a new skill I need to develop. Most people expect that I can do this easier after raising a family but I never have really been able to do it. It's my all or nothing thing combined with my highly distractable brain. And just for the last fortnight it's been a son who has moved back in to build a pergola for me. I have felt a bit caught up in a guilt web while he's been here, and will for a bit. 

Anyway that's so enough of me? How has your day been? Have you had anymore feedback from your media debut or session you were involved in? 

[Sans911]

It's OK @Teej. No need to explain. As I said you just need to do what's right for you.

My day has been relaxing today. I've had a gp appointment and my support worker has been for a couple of hours.

Unfortunately, my media debut is stalled, and seems to be going nowhere right now. I'm a bit disappointed as it was supposed to coincide with the federal budget and Mental health week. The organisation that's running the program is a charity, and needs funding to continue running the program. So yet again it feels like things that are important and needed are shoved aside.

I constantly get my hopes up of better services for people with a mental illness. But I don't know why I do. That and a better life for me sometimes seem hopeless and out of reach.

[Teej]

@Sans911 I get that you would be feeling disappointed and maybe a bit devalued 🙁😡. 
You get your hopes up @Sans911 because you care and it's what you are passionate about. With those good admirable traits comes the big disappointment feelings when things don't work out. Here's hoping it comes together soon for you. It's something that's worthwhile persevering with if you can.  I know that perseverance is a strength of yours. I hope that perseverance helps find a better life for you. You deserve it. 

im glad your day was ok and that you have a support worker for a while. It must be nice to have that support currently. I hope it is there for as long as you need it. 

im starting to get sleepy 💤. I'll say goodnight and hope to be back here soon. 💜🤗

[Sans911]

Goodnight @Teej. Thank you for the chat. I hope you get some restful sleep. 😴😴😴💕💕💕💕

[Snowie]

@Sans911 @Teej @outlander 

Lots of squishy hugs💖💖💖

[outlander]

@Sans911 @Snowie @Teej 💜💜💜

[Snowie]

@Sans911 lots of love and hugs sis 💌💌💌