hi @hanami
Even though I have my own children and beautiful granddaughter on Christmas Day (to which i am very grateful for) I still struggle and end up in tears on my own during the day (usually in the bathroom)
I think because i am a person that LOVES family. loves family together and i was always the only one who would connect all siblings and parents together for every single celebration (Christmas, easter etc)
So now i feel a bit lost, a bit empty. I feel very sad for my poor dad who i know will be lonely and not with his children. my mum has told me that they are going nowhere for Christmas, i have asked but her reply was no.
I would like if possible for support during the holidays, just someone i can come on here and get some support. It's a crazy time of the year and with all the advertisements everywhere; the pressure of buying presents; the pressure of trying to 'do better' each year.
I do feel lucky to have my 2 out of 3 kids with me this year as I do know there are lots of people on their own. although this year will be extra hard as i won't have my youngest son with us as he is overseas. Even though i know he is ok and will have a nice Christmas with his girlfriend it's still not the same without him.
I think just having someone on Sane Forum to be a support, although i do understand it is your time for holiday break too.
