Motivation can come and go @Snowie and I know sometimes it's harder to feel that hope.
You're going through so much uncertainty right now with your family, add that to any individual struggles and I think it's understandable to be struggling to care.
Care and trying can also bring uncertainty, because then we are open to being let down or disappointed, whereas when we close ourselves off from caring then there's a bit of safety in that because if we don't care then we won't get hurt. Maybe today you need to not care, and maybe tomorrow or the next day you'll find that you can open yourself to caring a little bit...
