It's loud so loud

[Scarebear83]

Still not good.
But I managed to have a few bites of a big mac.
It's been a few days since eating.
I can't feel them around me at the moment.

[tyme]

Please reach out if you feel you need to speak to someone tonight @Scarebear83 :

Lifeline 13 11 14 https://www.lifeline.org.au/ 

Lifeline Text Support 0477 131 114 https://www.lifeline.org.au/crisis-text/ 

Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659 467 https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/ 

[Gremlin24]

@Scarebear83 sorry to hear that you still aren't going good. I'm happy to hear from you, I've been worried about you. I'm glad you managed to eat a little bit, it's so hard to eat when things get hard i go through the same. 

I'm around if you'd like to chat. If you feel unsafe at all though please reach out to the services that @tyme has shared. 

We care about you and want you to get the support you need and deserve while you are going through this. 

[Scarebear83]

Are you still there?

[Gremlin24]

@Scarebear83 I'm here. Are you ok? 

[Scarebear83]

Not really. I feel really low today. I think I am still in an episode. I'm not right. I'm not thinking ok. I don't know what's going on

[Gremlin24]

@Scarebear83 I'm sorry to hear. I'm here to chat if you want. How long do your episodes usually last? 

Have you reached out to any of the crisis services? 

[Scarebear83]

Last time I reached out they came and took me to hospital and I was admitted. I don't want to be admitted ever again. It's why I'm not so open now.

A few days,
Generally only really bad for a day but I don't really remember them.obly little bits

[Gremlin24]

@Scarebear83 ok, i understand being admitted is scary I've been there many times before myself. Sometimes though it can be the best place as they can get you the support you need. Just keep it as an option if things get really bad, i just want you to be safe and get the support you need. 

What do you normally do with your days? Do you work, have any hobbies or things you enjoy doing? Do you have family or friends that can offer any support? 

[Scarebear83]

I didn't get any support in there. I was put in a room and pretty much well left alone for days.

I don't have support anymore. I have removed all my family from my life.
My partner use to be but he was pretending