Hi @Captain24, I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I was very similar earlier in the year. I tried finding things to do to distract myself but it only just dulled that feeling temporarily. For me, I had to completely re-evaluate my life and what I wanted to do with it. I tired to find things that felt more important to me now, things that i qoukd have never rhought of before. It took a bit of experimentation but a lot of just purting myself out there and connecting with other people to start to get an idea of what this direction was.
My lowest point hit in December last year, and I'm only just now starting to find that way foward. While also just starting to finally work on a lot of those issues that have been haunting me my whole life.
So try to remember you're not a failure. We try to do the best we can with the hand we are dealt in life and a lot of the time, its far from easy, especially with not much support around us and a lot of time to just think while we stare off into space. For me, at that point i was my own worst enemy... the constant thoughts of how useless i was and how life just seemed to be a pointless grind.
It was atcthis point I, very slowly, started to think I needed to work out what I could change and focus on that. I still have a lot of bad days, but im in a far better place that I was earlier this year. It just started with trying so hard to stop listening to all those self doubts that dominated my thoughts for so long... inbetween all those temporary distractions.
So I feel like i do understand where you are at the moment enough to just remind you that you're not a failure, you are something,and things can get better. It just takes time and some support.
