Not at all confusing @Teej. I hear you ..... 💜
There is nothing in my life I can talk about to anyone that doesn’t double back into the background issues, other than my art, and even then I am choosing the academic path I am taking in order to have the best chance of staying in it and landing in my feet if / when everything goes pear-shaped for a while.
To maintain a privacy shield, I have to smile and pretend everything is okay ..... I tell
people that S2 and D3 are at uni as well - technically they are because they are still enrolled. Are they attending classes ? Nope. Do I say that ? Only to a select circle. Even people I do open up to can only really hear it once, because the knowledge itself is heavy to carry.
That’s me ..... but I understand you ..... and amongst ourselves here everything is heavy, so we help carry each other’s situation, and we can keep hearing it, because here it is what it is. There are aspects of here that are more real than “out there” because here includes our inner worlds.
My way of functioning “out there” is to put on a “going out” face and a “going out” hat ..... and that will have to do for now ..... and that is okay.
I just wanted you to hear that someone else does what you do ..... you’re not the only one ..... and if you could take down everybody else’s social masks, you would likely be shocked at aspects of their story that don’t usually see the light of day.
Hugs 💜🌷
