I am struggling at the moment

[outlander]

@Teej im glad that your going to be safe enough. hugs

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Teej ..... sitting with you ..... breathe Hon ..... breathe through it .....

It does sound like a bad session.

[CheerBear]

Bucketloads of these 💗💜❤ and lots of thoughts for you @Teej.

[outlander]

hi @Teej hoping your ok, i did read your post before too
thinking of you tonight

[Faith-and-Hope]

 @Teej ..... 💜💐💕

[CheerBear]

For you this morning @Teej

Lilacs. It won't be long before we're enjoying them again.

💜

[Teej]

Thank you for your support @CheerBear, @Faith-and-Hope, @outlander, @Former-Member 

i haven’t been that close to the edge for a while. My big tantrum is mostly over and I’m left just feeling solemn and lost. 

Im not going to know until mid August if I get the go ahead for this therapy and in the meantime it is messing with me hugely. I have a strong feeling that I won’t be able to do it as I won’t fit the criteria. The very big hopeless feelings of not ever getting through this take over and the ,what’s the point, stuff comes back. The hardest part is I feel like she could help me. 

@Sans911 I’m tagging you here so you know why I dropped out yesterday. I couldn’t write any of this in your thread. 

@CheerBear Those lilacs gave me my first smile today. It inspired me to try and getting a cutting and try to grow some. 

The hydrangeas (I think they are) are lovely as well @Faith-and-Hope. 

I hope you enjoyed your quiet day yesterday @CheerBear. 

Im meant to watch one of my sons play footy for the first time this year but I’m not in a headspace I can do that. I feel like I’m just on survival mode. I feel so ripped off that last week I was in respite and doing do much better but it hasn’t taken much for the wheels to come off and have lots of si. Sorry for the downer post. 

[Faith-and-Hope]

It’s just good to hear from you @Teej .....

Be gentle with yourself and wait for / look for the up-swing ..... practice something arty if you can ..... do a “how-to” YouTube vid ?

Not trying to minimalist how you’re feeling, just provide you a baby step to go to.

[Teej]

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope. In the past I would have gone much further so I guess that’s something. 

I think I’m just going to get through hour by hour. 

Hugs 💜🤗

[NatalieS]

Thinking of you @Teej  Sending