Alone

[Ru-bee]

Are you able to continue monitoring your heart rate at home @Gremlin24?  

Ah I know the quest to find the right medication can be so tedious but maybe it can lead to some relief

[Gremlin24]

@Ru-bee I'm monitoring it yes, unfortunately the chest pain and tightness has started. I'm trying to just sit and colour but I can't even do that cos I'm shaking so much. The doctor actually had to hold my hand still just to get the oximeter to read my heart rate.  

[Ru-bee]

Hmm chest pains are definitely something to pay attention to, especially with your elevated heart rate @Gremlin24 are you able to get in touch with Nurse on call/health direct for some guidance? When it comes to the heart its definitely better to safe 

[Gremlin24]

@Ru-bee they will just tell me to call 000. Doctor has already told me to aswell. I'm stubborn and like I said I don't want to miss the appointment tomorrow, I also don't feel like being a human pin cushion right now 😂. 

[Ru-bee]

Well then I'm probably going to encourage you to do the same thing, I know doctors don't mess around with chest pain @Gremlin24 

Couldn't it be better to go and have it checked out now and hopefully being back in time for the appointment, rather than risk it getting worse and you end up missing it anyway?

[Gremlin24]

@Ru-bee if I go in i will be in for a few days cos they have to monitor and put so many medications in me to try to bring it down. Only for nothing to work and being left with no answers. 

[Ru-bee]

I get that @Gremlin24 just please be careful and reach out for medical assistance if things get worse, we definitely don't want you feeling worse!

[Gremlin24]

@Ru-bee i will. I'm just trying to rest. Can't k*ll a weed is my saying, and that's why I'm still here 😂

[Gremlin24]

@Ru-bee I can't do any colouring 😞.

My body is struggling and my potassium levels are critically low so my body keeps cramping and that means my hands aswell when I'm trying to colour. Now how am I supposed to keep myself distracted. 

[Gremlin24]

Why can't I just sleep without waking up having a full on panic attack. I'm sick of waking up like this. Even after taking multiple tablets, i still can't sleep for more than 30 minutes at a time before waking up completely panicked. I just can't do this anymore, i need to sleep, I need a break from these thoughts, I need it all to stop. 

I'm done with things being like this, i feel like there's only one way to make it all stop, one way i can finally just relax and be at peace.