Just checking in.

[Former-Member]

Just posted elsewhere, have to rush off to a couple APTS irl, but thanks Beautifuls 💜

ELT💕

[Queenie]

Just checking in, having a rough night 

[outlander]

Sorry to hear that @Queenie
Care to share?maybe we can help?

[Queenie]

My biological family who emotionally abused me is managing to get their hooks into me again @outlander .

They are never going to change their ways and now I just feel like harming myself. Sometimes I wish I was never born... I certainly didn’t ask for it. My wife says I should just let it go, but it’s ingrained in me... all the abuse and to think they are still doing it.

I just want to give up. I’m tired of crying 😢 of feeling sick from nerves... all of it.

I tried contacting lifeline earlier to talk to someone, but chickened out.

[outlander]

Thats really tough @Queenie abuse of any kind is hard to let go and move forwars from.
Maybe try talking online to lifeline rather then ringing? I know how daunting it can be to reach out for help sometimes

[Former-Member]

Hey @Queenie 

It can be hard to reach out for help when we're feeling really vulnerable – but doing so is so impartant. I am gld that you have felt able to talk to forum friends and connect here tonight. I will send you an email shortly as I am concerned when you say that you feel like giving up and harming yourself tonight.

Take care Queenie

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hugs @Queenie ..... hearing how tough it is for you .....

💐💕

[Former-Member]

@Queenie, you ok? My family are messed up and hurtful too. Its so hard to separate from them. I move away, and block them in my phone a lot, but still get a lot of guilt doing that. All we want is to be loved, and we're hard wired to exchange that with our family unit. The world is broken. Someone once suggested treating my family as 'professional' relationships... Detaches emotions a bit I guess, but easier said than done. I finally found a place recently where my survival depended on it. Hope you're a bit better? 💙

[CheerBear]

@Teej just checking in as I'm thinking of you this morning. I hope you're going OK enough while there's lots and big happening in your world. Big ❤

[Teej]

Hey @CheerBear  👋🏻. 

Im ok. I came through the surgery really well. Feeling very bloated but ok. I will be able to make court in a couple of days but there has been some developments that are putting me more on edge. 

How are you going?