Just checking in.

[frog]

 @Teej  thinking of you and hoping today will be better.

[eth]

One step at a time @Faith-and-Hope @Zoe7 @frog @Teej   Sending warm wishes to you all and others here this morning.

[Teej]

My tears have finally stopped. I am feeling part human again (my little finger and big toe...and sense of humour feel human). I have a feeling the roller coaster will continue for a while yet. 

Wondering how you are holding up @CheerBear ? Here if you want to talk. I can respond tonight. 

Hi to all passing through. 

[frog]

Oh @Teej sense of humour is always an excellent sign  part human made me smile.

Roller coaster riding is rough, particularly when you never bought a ticket 

With you.

[Teej]

It’s kind of ironic @frog  that we get a free ride on the roller coaster when we don’t want one. Come time to take the kids on a roller coaster and it costs a fortune 🤨

How are you doing? How was your day? 

[Snowie]

@Teej 💜💜💜

[CheerBear]

I made a kid cry, a parent cry and dragged a sibling in to it today. I sucked at being mum, daughter and sister. I tried and failed to do anything good with my day and felt too close to not in control of anything at all today. I really needed time out today. Even just a couple of hours would have helped enormously. I need to be able to have some proper on my own, go for a big walk to clear my head, time out. Things would be easier with that. I won't be at my parent's appointment because my stubbornness got in the way of that when I left yesterday. I've been feeling an intense need to stay together and in control of me and my stuff, but it has been a struggle to dig to find some kind of OK-ness. I woke up bursting with tears in the tiny hours of the morning and spent the day fighting off a sinking puddle of them. The worse I feel the worse I do and the worse I do the worse I feel. I know I need some kind of stop or circuit breaker when this starts happening. Psych wasn't exactly responsive to my 'please help'. I could really use hearing something helpful from him soon. It's not often I ask that from him and it's not like a have a lot of other go-to's right now.

I'm very much looking forward to hitting a prn off switch soon and am hoping for a long, still, unthinking, unfeeling sleep so I can do better tomorrow. I really need to do better tomorrow.

[Snowie]

Listening @CheerBear 

Sending you lots of 💜 and hugs as you try to deal with all of this. I hope you are able to get a good nights sleep 💗💗💗💗💗

[Faith-and-Hope]

Sounds like a huge backwash day from yesterday @CheerBear ..... and pent up feelings do that ..... I can remember trying to find my lash-out off button when I have felt totally overwhelmed, but it was only me who could keep carrying things forward because there was nobody else .....

And carry things forward we do, but not in the best possible way, because we are not in the best possible way at times like that, so how on Earth could we ??!!

Big soft shoulder here @CheerBear .  Hearing you loud and clear, and feeling those feels, although they mostly belong a few years ago for me now, when there was school chaos and homework to juggle along with the bazillion other balls on the air, and others all over the ground ......

Just you hang in there Hon. You are being authentic, which is so far above perfect that perfect is a fleck of dust.  Anyone ..... anyone in your circumstances would be feeling meltdown at the moment.

Hugs n hugs n hugs n hugs ..... 💜🌹💜🌹💜🌹💜

Extra kudos for telling it raw like it is .....

[oceangirl]

Hi CB @CheerBear 

Thank you for sharing- it was honest and raw. I really hope you sleep well, and hopefully you wake up feeling a bit better. 

I just love our F&H and our she has reached out to you. Especially when she said - big soft shoulder here. There are not many geninue people like her. And she puts so much thought into her responses and with so much wisdom and insight.

I remember when I fly from Brissie to Nth Qld, it was back in the day. I moved to start my education degree and I had mixed emotions- excitment and tears. I started to get tears on the plane and I started talking to a lady on the plane and she said here is a big soft shoulder- it just reminded me of that after reading what F&H @Faith-and-Hope wrote to you.