Just checking in.

[Zoe7]

Sorry I dropped ut there for a little while - had a lie down to try to get rid of this headache and think it has worked. Will take another med before I head out a bit later and that will hopefully get me through the morning. It is the time of year where everything is chaotic but I get to spend some time with my Dad and I enjoy that every year. It has become a ritual for us and I do look forward to it despite the chaos. I only have one present left to buy and will do that when I meet my sister - should be a good day really.

I feel like I have already put the disappointment of yesterday behind me - not anything I can do about it so need to let it go. Glad to be out of there and moving on to the next chapter in my life @CheerBear

[CheerBear]

Oooh that notification came though within seconds @Zoe7.

So, so good to hear you sounding positive this morning. I genuinely am inspired by you having watched (that sounds weird - walked alongside maybe?) you through this journey for the last while. I think you were in a dream last night. It had my kids school in it with all the teachers, but some I didnt recognise by face and I'm fairly sure you were one. It was like our yesterdays merged in my sleepy head!

That sounds very special with your dad. Traditions like that are some of the things that get me through the jumbled upness of this time of the year. We have a few tradition kinds of things too that make me feel good inside.

[Zoe7]

SO nice to be in your dream even if you don't know what I look like @CheerBear - I have dreamt about you before as a cheerbear and that is pretty special 

Dad and I didn't go last year because I was not well enough but we have gone together to get things for Mum for many years and it is our one day that we spend together. My sister spends time with him occasionally because she has a very keen interest in the horses - I avoid that topic as much as I can because I am not interested in them at all. So this time with my Dad is my annual catch up with him and it is always nice. My Dad is not the same man he used to be - he is so much better and despite there still being some of the old ways that come out in times on the whole he is a different man - I see the softer side of him a lot more and it is really nice. It seems the older he has got the more relaxed he has become. I think Mum would disagree with that as she lives with his mood changes every day but I like this side of him a lot. I also take take any of his shite anymore and will call him out on it or walk away so that is good for me.

[CheerBear]

I think it's pretty cool when forum friends come into our dreams @Zoe7. It's like hanging out in person but not. I have some pretty clear images in my mind of what some people here might look like, which I'm sure I am wrong about (especially when I hear things like @Teej having glasses - ps Teej I hope last night was OK and am thinking of you also ❤😘). I also have a very clear picture in my mind of your garden and the outside of your house for some reason (in q totally non creepy way!).

Loved hearing about the good in your relationship with your dad. I've been watching my people change a lot over the last months and can't help but feel a bit sad that some of the ways that unwell one can be now were not there way earlier. I guess that's life and growing as people though. I particularly enjoyed hearing that you call your dad out now too and don't take it. It makes a difference in a tricky relationship when you can do that.

[Zoe7]

I confronted my Dad a long time ago with how he treated me so that is pretty much resolved in my mind @CheerBear I did stand up to him the last time he hit me and he did apologise - that was over 25 years ago but I still am proud of how I handled it. It has certainly made our relationship better since. He has also been really good throughout this whole school principal stuff - ringing every couple of days and also giving me space when I asked for it - that is all something new in our relationship but it does show me he is not only thinking bout me but also supporting me and that is gold. 

I know I have posted some images of my garden so that would give you a better image of it. I also have a lemon tree in my backyard and I often imagine you sitting under yours - it is lovely that we have such things in common and can imagine each other in a place of peace 

[Zoe7]

I better go and get myself organised to head out @CheerBear Lovely chatting to you this morning. Hope today is all that you hope for Hon snd there are plenty of moments of light 

[CheerBear]

Big giant hugs for that @Zoe7. Standing up to people can be very scary, especially ones in positions of power, authority and trust. So good to hear it has benefited you and that now he is supportive of you. You deserve that.

Mine has had to face that they won't be around for a huge amount of time and I think that is what has helped shift them a bit. They've seen who is really there for them and how much is done with and for them that maybe they couldn't see or acknowledge properly before. This could/looks likely that this will be their last Christmas (it's pretty amazing they even made it to here at all) and I think that's helped with them wanting to make the most of the time they have. I'm hoping we make lots of special memories over the next little while.

All the feels that come with this time of year hey?!

I'm going to head out and think you're not far off doing so either. I really, really hope you have a great day Zoe and you make memories to keep too.

So enjoying catching you when I do. Big love ❤

[CheerBear]

(Hehe love it when snap posting of the same kind of message happens 😊 - another connection thing!)

[Zoe7]

haha I love that too CB 

Have a great day @CheerBear 

[Shaz51]

Good to hear you went for a walk and got outside @Teej, sorry I am a bit late responding to that tag

@Zoe7, @CheerBear, lovely reading all you messages and sending you hugs for today and now it is afternoon , how are you going xx

Hello my scotirish sister @Mazarita