Hi everyone. Thank you for creating this forum. I am a new member to the forum and I am also very new to the live-in-carer role. I am really struggling with this man who I provide care to. I will call him George. I have known George for less than a year as my neighbour. I spent months caring for him in a limited neighbourly capacity and, at his request, I moved in and became his live in carer in September this year. His home was borderline squalid but I have cleaned it up and made it quite homely, comfortable and healthy.
George is in his late 60s. He was obviously once a strong well built man but he is now rather frail. He has (among other things) COPD and type 1 diabetes. He also had a very bad MV accident 4 years ago and the totality of his injuries has yet to be fully determined. He suffers chronic pain to his back, neck, shoulders, and legs, but refuses to use a walking frame or even a walking stick. Also, his GP is currently investigating a possible ABI as a result of this MV accident. George's short term memory is best described as sporadic.
I guess my main problem is that I have failed to set my boundaries with him. I dontt know how to overcome this. It's not through lack of trying though. I now feel that he has no respect for my needs, feelings or opinion whatsoever. If we disagree on a topic he tells me he doesnt care how I feel; or "its not bothering me(George) so i dont care if it bothers anyone else; or "Well it's my house and that's the way I want it if you dont like it pack your s&@t and F&@? off."
I'm starting to feel like I'm nothing but a servant to him. He does not assist with any cooking or cleaning. I dont mind doing the cleaning, but before i moved in he was cooking his own meals every day. Now, if I dont cook for him or if I dont jump to attention when he says he is hungry, he will make a passive aggressive comment and fix himself a piece of toast or something simple. He has never ever thanked me for cooking his meals, nor has he thanked me for anything that I do for him, for that matter. I change his linen and he will just say "Didnt need changing". He has even said to me "I dont need to thank you, you're getting paid for it." I feel very disrespected that he leaves excrement on the toilet seat, which happens several times per week, and does not clean it off. Not in the bowl, I mean the actual seat that I have to sit on as well as guests when they pop over. I have made it extremely clear to him how I feel about that, yet he denies it is him and continhes to do it. His disabilities do not affect his ability to wipe up his own mess. He is quite happy to live in squalor and since I moved in here, he has become lazier and lazier. I feel like he is beginning to resent having a clean table to eat off or that I sweep the floors 3 or 4 times a day (we live almost beachfront and slso have a dog so the floors get really grubby)
Tonight George and I had a disagreement over the back door. We live in a very hot humid climate, I had just finished washing up so I was sweating, and when I finished I sat downon the lounge. George got up and switched off the fan and then closed and locked the back wooden door, even though the security door was already locked. I asked him to leave it open to let the air flow through. He said no he wants it locked from now on. I told him I'm hot George and I got up and opened it. He said "rubbish its not hot" and closed it again. When I asked him why he just said "because its my house and thats how its gonna be". Anyway, to cut a long story short, things escallated to the poont where he yelling at me within an inch of my face, then grabbed me and tried to push me aside to close the door. I did not touch him and I did not move away. His nephew was here and intervened by jumping between us saying "Dont you touch her! Dont you ever touch a woman George". There was a lot of shouting then between George and his nephew, and I thought it almost turned into a fist fight between them but instead, George sat down and called the police. Police attended and the nephew and I explained what had happened but George was still angry and told them to get us out. Police told him they would not intervene.
My biggest problem is, he probably wont even remember any of this tomorrow. Sometimes I feel like he feigns his memory loss to save face or get his own way...
i dont even know how to approach the boundary setting subject. George isnt an kid or adolescent he is very stubbornly set in his ways because "thats the way ive always done it". I feel he wohld shoot me down and discard it as Rubbish if i were to bring up the topic. I cannot even begin to think of any consequence that he would even care about.
PS: i gave up my own unit to move in and provide care for George and I pay half the rent, utilities and food. Now I am in a bit of a bind, given the current rental crisis in quesnsland, I have buckleys chance of finding accommodation if I were to leave. He really does need someone to help him with his everyday living and I really do want to make this work. I have come to genuinely care about this person even though he can turn nadty and has a temper. He also does have a caring and benevolent side to him too. I dont know where to go for support, we are in a remote area and services here are nil. Any suggestions or help pr even just someone to talk to would be greatly appreciatd. Thank you
